Perhaps the only thing I can ever do well in is to disappoint myself. Time and again, something will crop up and it makes me so frustrated that I don't stand up and do the right thing for myself. What my head tells me to do and the actions that come out are polar opposites. It's really frustrating.
I've got to get this straight. To do what's right even if it may take the split second of humiliation, bravery, whatever. Because If I don't, chances are I will regret it afterwards. And the feeling of regret is just bitter. and it only keeps coming back like the aftertaste in your mouth after you eat something bad.

I ran today. After a whole month + of not running. It was pure bliss. So gonna do it again. Sure, the sun was relentlessly scorching me and the weather was rather humid and dense but it was that wonderful feeling I get when I run that kept me going. 2 km, not a lot but it was a good start. My legs are aching like mad now. But the pain is totally worth it. heck yeah no kidding.

On a side note, I think I'm falling sick soon. I haven't really gotten ill much this year. I wonder why. Perhaps there was so much to look forward to (or so much to do) that my body didn't really have time to think about breaking down the immune system till now; When things have more or less slowed down. A lot of people in school are getting sick too. Could be the crazyyy weather too..

Dian.